September 9
at first glance you don't recognize the woman with big tousled hair and mouth set firmly staring resolutely from the magazine cover over your left ear into the future into destiny, a gaze so steady you almost miss that she is holding a book. But then, your eyes readjusts, and you recognize the woman without her makeup, her persona, the kind, generous, always smiling singer, actress, daughter of the Tennessee hills she never left. But this drawing captures the woman behind the mask, strong, resolute, who quietly helped others, a strength and steel hidden beneath the laughter and joy.
i try to remind the cat that i have lived in the house much longer than she i know where everything is where i am going and she does have to lead me to the coffeepot in the kitchen every time i stand up. but she has enabled that noise-cancelling feature cats are born with. i follow compliantly until our paths diverge-- hers to her food bowl mine to wherever.
the little kid just past toddlerhood has separated herself from the scrum of stroller, dogs, siblings and parents, independent. As she races down the sidewalk, dancing between novelties that need exploring, with the sheer joy of freedom. But then she squats in the middle of the sidewalk and jumps, for a few moments free even of gravity. I jump with her, hoping to relive my first moment of no constraint, life, freedom, joy. She will jump again many times, reliving the excitement, learning success, failure and risk, learning to fly. But no time will equal the first time, when she broke free from the earth on short, stubby legs. I still have those feelings emotions captured in my legs, ready to fuel my next jump to freedom, to capture or relive experience.
on/off 0/1 yin/yang black/white good/bad right/wrong us/them do/don’t can/can’t not a way to live to enjoy life.
i contain multitudes. walt said that i believe him i now contain walt, mark huck jim the river tim jimmy and the song tra bra terry the watch sorcerers and a planet carl and chicago with its streetcars joe yossarian and the war billy and rita and moments in the universe as real as anybody who fed me comforted me slapped me on the back too many to list only a sample i sing with many voices many tongues i sing harmony solos with crashing cymbals and gentle harps loudly softly I sing off-key lyrics optional, but passion at the core i keep much to myself practice patience waiting waiting until the time is right for release for flight i contain dark as well as light, wells of wisdom wells of emotion forces of mayhem some life-giving some destructive i cannot contain the multitudes-- too many, too energized, too important to be only min3 i contain multitudes.